Beyond

Beyond the heartbreak,
After the pain,
I found my laughter, found my soul,
And I want to live again,

It's far from over,
It's just begun,
I don't know where I'm going,
But I'm having fun.

Out in the moonlight,
Underneath the stars,
The night seems lighter now,
And I'm going to go far.

Far away from here now,
To heal the scars inside my mind,
And all the pain I felt will be
Just a memory left behind.

For Trish

The smile that lights your face,
Has faded out of sight,
And when I look into your eyes,
I know that everything's not right.

I saw your pain, but you weren't fighting,
As she pressed upon your face,
Where were you? I can't find you,
Are you in another place?

Did you find what you were seeking?
Or are you coming back to stay?
The last time we were speaking,
I wish I'd known that I should say,

How very, very much I love you,
Though I know you know, for sure,
But I haven't said enough yet,
And I want to tell you so much more.

So come back and smile at me again,
If you feel as though you can,
But if you need to be with your angel,
You know that I'll still understand,

If you're here, if you're there,
Then you'll still be in my heart,
I want to say how much I love you,
But I don't know where to start.

You are family in a way,
That means so much more than blood,
And sometimes, when I was lonely,
I still knew you understood,

I don't know what I'd be without you,
And I don't want this to end,
You mean so much, there are no words,
But you're my family, my love, my friend.

An Apology, and a Eulogy

You broke my mind,
You broke my soul,
You even broke my heart,
But I'll forgive
Sins of the past,
To go back to the start.

I loved you both,
A little too much,
I guess I didn't know,
What I felt for you,
Was real and true,
But I could only show,

The demons who haunted
All my dreams
And hounded all my days,
And because of them,
I lost my friends,
And it all ended this way.

The clouds have gone,
The demons flown,
And now I see things clear.
Not all my fault,
And not all yours,
And I just wish you were here.

Someday

Someday soon the sun is going to shine,
Someday I'm going to find the one who's mine,
Now all I want to do is hold the hand,
Of the only other boy who understands.

Of the one boy who can see into my soul,
Of the one boy who was born to make me whole,
Of the boy with whom I'd never be afraid,
Of the boy for whom my aching heart was made.

Someday I'm going to gaze into the sky,
And I'm already going to know the reason why,
The reason I'm alive upon this Earth,
Is to be here with the boy who gives me worth.

Someday I'm going stare into the sun,
And I'm going to know I'm not the only one.

And I'm going to know I'm not the lonely one.